I've been in the same boat. IMHO you need rest. Having PTSD or any anxiety related disorder is like having dodgy knees. If you hurt them running, it is best mot to run and instead get some physio.
Your brain is more complex than knees (sadly) and so it is even more important to get rest and physio when strain happens.
In this case physio is therapy. Take the weight off your knees. Stop trying to run. Heal up. Go slow. Regain stamina slowly. Walk. Then run.
It may not be ideal, it may result in lower income, but that's life. You don't need to give up a certain career path or get out of tech.
Move to engineering management, join a gov org, move to something slow moving like defense. Something so encumbered with legislation that the whole thing moves slow. Incidentally those are the areas of tech that often change the least, helping get off that treadmill.
I just want to comment on the "move into engineering management " but because I've seen it 2 or 3 times on this thread.
I've been in management for 6 years after 15 years as an IC and I still hate tech. Probably depends on the organization and the person, but being accountable for the work of others is stressful and draining as F.
I personally sometimes think about how relaxing it would be to just start the day, pick up a ticket, do it, and go home. But I know it's a "grass is greener" fantasy, being an IC comes with its own cross to bear.
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I've been in the same boat. IMHO you need rest. Having PTSD or any anxiety related disorder is like having dodgy knees. If you hurt them running, it is best mot to run and instead get some physio.
Your brain is more complex than knees (sadly) and so it is even more important to get rest and physio when strain happens.
In this case physio is therapy. Take the weight off your knees. Stop trying to run. Heal up. Go slow. Regain stamina slowly. Walk. Then run.
It may not be ideal, it may result in lower income, but that's life. You don't need to give up a certain career path or get out of tech.
Move to engineering management, join a gov org, move to something slow moving like defense. Something so encumbered with legislation that the whole thing moves slow. Incidentally those are the areas of tech that often change the least, helping get off that treadmill.
I just want to comment on the "move into engineering management " but because I've seen it 2 or 3 times on this thread.
I've been in management for 6 years after 15 years as an IC and I still hate tech. Probably depends on the organization and the person, but being accountable for the work of others is stressful and draining as F.
I personally sometimes think about how relaxing it would be to just start the day, pick up a ticket, do it, and go home. But I know it's a "grass is greener" fantasy, being an IC comes with its own cross to bear.