To be honest I have had it like you describe for the most of my life, and still have it in some areas.
What I have learned as a 43 year old is that it is just how I am and when I accepted that, it became easier and it is no longer a "problem" for me.
Perhaps you are like that?
I took the strenghtsfinder 2.0 test and that helped me understand myself which helped me to accept myself.
I can highly recommend the book "start with why" to figure out who your innermost values are, and the letting go book from zenhabits to accept who you are and letting all your ideas about who you should be go.
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To be honest I have had it like you describe for the most of my life, and still have it in some areas.
What I have learned as a 43 year old is that it is just how I am and when I accepted that, it became easier and it is no longer a "problem" for me.
Perhaps you are like that?
I took the strenghtsfinder 2.0 test and that helped me understand myself which helped me to accept myself.
I can highly recommend the book "start with why" to figure out who your innermost values are, and the letting go book from zenhabits to accept who you are and letting all your ideas about who you should be go.