and i'm totally addicted to coding - even when i notice my lack of math skills. i spent the nights trying to understand cs concepts and couldn't sleep or stop before i found a solution

Yes you can definitely do it. Many, nay most 30+ y.o. treat this profession just as another job without a particular liking to it (not that there's anything wrong with it - I'm just stating facts). I think you will overtake them within a couple of years with this passion.