I can highly recommend psychoanalysis.

It would be of great benefit to a safer society, if you reflected on your use of the words:

Sillier, riskier, more doomed the better, and the carnage.

Classic material for us psychological types.

maybe you should reconsider working with ai or in any tech role.

you might even find that working in ai or any place in the tech industry, was not your first choice.

The human unconscious mind (ai is not conscious, its a sales pitch), has many ways to manipulate us.

I can recommend a decent book for you:

Lacan: A Beginner's Guide - Beginner's Guides by Lionel Bailly