I've spent some time working on jobs as a programmer, but the companies weren't all that great... to be honest, I had the chance to take a somewhat close look at the infrastructure of one of the largest retailers from Brazil, who happened to be one of our clients, and it was scary how it was so poorly designed and implemented - it was something like a tower of babel, there was lots of third-party workers and no one was really responsible for anything.
Now I'm trying to do a PhD on security for distributed systems, though I'm having trouble to find it inspiring. I have a recurring feeling that this is not for me, but when I think about quiting it to start something for myself I have trouble thinking what could be usefull for other people, for those who use it as a tool and not as a research object. It's a bit frustrating :)
Not to put words in your mouth, but it sounds like you're doing your PhD because you can't think of anything better to do. That doesn't exactly seem like a recipe for happiness.
Indeed, I'm almost convinced of this. My advisor invited me to work with him then I got excited by the idea of doing something more complex than what I was doing. I wasn't really thrilled by getting into school again, but I guess it was good to my ego :P
A year passed and the freshness faded away. Now I'm struggling to get things done because I really don't see a point in what I am doing.
I don't know if I'm going to drop out yet, but if I do it won't take long to happen.
Well, at worst I guess I'm learning what not to do :)
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I've spent some time working on jobs as a programmer, but the companies weren't all that great... to be honest, I had the chance to take a somewhat close look at the infrastructure of one of the largest retailers from Brazil, who happened to be one of our clients, and it was scary how it was so poorly designed and implemented - it was something like a tower of babel, there was lots of third-party workers and no one was really responsible for anything.
Now I'm trying to do a PhD on security for distributed systems, though I'm having trouble to find it inspiring. I have a recurring feeling that this is not for me, but when I think about quiting it to start something for myself I have trouble thinking what could be usefull for other people, for those who use it as a tool and not as a research object. It's a bit frustrating :)
Not to put words in your mouth, but it sounds like you're doing your PhD because you can't think of anything better to do. That doesn't exactly seem like a recipe for happiness.
Indeed, I'm almost convinced of this. My advisor invited me to work with him then I got excited by the idea of doing something more complex than what I was doing. I wasn't really thrilled by getting into school again, but I guess it was good to my ego :P
A year passed and the freshness faded away. Now I'm struggling to get things done because I really don't see a point in what I am doing. I don't know if I'm going to drop out yet, but if I do it won't take long to happen.
Well, at worst I guess I'm learning what not to do :)