I dealt with crippling depression and anxiety for most of my adult life. I used alcohol to try and tamp it down and that went about as well as you can expect.
After decades of failed therapy, failed pharmaceuticals, etc. what really worked for me was taking mushrooms and thinking deeply about myself, my life, and who I wanted to be.
It sounds nuts, but it dramatically changed how I perceive myself and my place within the world. It saved my marriage and my relationship with my kids.
I realize that it is utterly unorthodox, but nothing else was working for me. For those that I come across who feel like nothing is helping, I recommend trying it. Preferably under the supervision of a clinical psychiatrist, but otherwise if there is no other option.
It's been about 18 months and I'm a fundamentally different person today.
I took them intermittently over a period of 6-8 months. In the beginning, I did so while also creating an enormous flow chart/mind map of everything in my life, how I felt about each facet, and what I wanted or thought about each part.
It helped me immensely see a bunch of negative patterns that I'd heretofore actively denied, and through that allowed me to make some hard decisions about who I wanted to become. In effect, it gave me the opportunity to see myself with some objectivity and empathy, and through that it allowed me to choose a path forward that wasn't so destructive. I have no idea if that methodology would work for anyone else, but it worked for me in a way that nothing else had.
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I dealt with crippling depression and anxiety for most of my adult life. I used alcohol to try and tamp it down and that went about as well as you can expect.
After decades of failed therapy, failed pharmaceuticals, etc. what really worked for me was taking mushrooms and thinking deeply about myself, my life, and who I wanted to be.
It sounds nuts, but it dramatically changed how I perceive myself and my place within the world. It saved my marriage and my relationship with my kids.
I realize that it is utterly unorthodox, but nothing else was working for me. For those that I come across who feel like nothing is helping, I recommend trying it. Preferably under the supervision of a clinical psychiatrist, but otherwise if there is no other option.
It's been about 18 months and I'm a fundamentally different person today.
Did you take mushrooms just once or did you take multiple doses and over what time period?
I took them intermittently over a period of 6-8 months. In the beginning, I did so while also creating an enormous flow chart/mind map of everything in my life, how I felt about each facet, and what I wanted or thought about each part.
It helped me immensely see a bunch of negative patterns that I'd heretofore actively denied, and through that allowed me to make some hard decisions about who I wanted to become. In effect, it gave me the opportunity to see myself with some objectivity and empathy, and through that it allowed me to choose a path forward that wasn't so destructive. I have no idea if that methodology would work for anyone else, but it worked for me in a way that nothing else had.