I've dropped out of highschool due to lack of attendance, lost almost 4 years trying to figure out what is wrong me. Put my parents through hell, wasn't nice. In the end I've realized that I wasn't depressed because of childhood traumas or whatever, but because I wasn't able to commit to studying, or to be able to properly focus on anything. Which in turn made me feel like shit, vicious cycle. Getting through high school would be easy, but that wouldn't fly in college. I literally read one page of notes and went to do 10 different things, before I realized that I'm supposed to do something else.
I'm writing that because a lot of helpful people tried to figure out what is going on with me, but I think that I've hidden the real thing (focus issues, missing some basic social queues, thinking "too fast") that was "different", so well, that I only could have realized that I have something ADHD-related at 24, as an adult.
Anyways, finished high school alternatively, now doing 2 degrees at uni, it's the exact same struggle, but I know myself better and it kind of goes. Medication is terrible, it's either methamphetamines for life or nothing. My grades are still terrible, but you can find your worth elsewhere.
I am both incredibly happy and frustrated it was pre-me that post-COVID online schooling gets more credit and justification for people with various struggles. I know that it would have saved me at least 2-3 years, so I look out for what is going on in that field. Cheers
Comments
I get you.
I've dropped out of highschool due to lack of attendance, lost almost 4 years trying to figure out what is wrong me. Put my parents through hell, wasn't nice. In the end I've realized that I wasn't depressed because of childhood traumas or whatever, but because I wasn't able to commit to studying, or to be able to properly focus on anything. Which in turn made me feel like shit, vicious cycle. Getting through high school would be easy, but that wouldn't fly in college. I literally read one page of notes and went to do 10 different things, before I realized that I'm supposed to do something else.
I'm writing that because a lot of helpful people tried to figure out what is going on with me, but I think that I've hidden the real thing (focus issues, missing some basic social queues, thinking "too fast") that was "different", so well, that I only could have realized that I have something ADHD-related at 24, as an adult.
Anyways, finished high school alternatively, now doing 2 degrees at uni, it's the exact same struggle, but I know myself better and it kind of goes. Medication is terrible, it's either methamphetamines for life or nothing. My grades are still terrible, but you can find your worth elsewhere.
I am both incredibly happy and frustrated it was pre-me that post-COVID online schooling gets more credit and justification for people with various struggles. I know that it would have saved me at least 2-3 years, so I look out for what is going on in that field. Cheers