The following is critisim so be ready. You probably don't use your skills for the things your mind wants to. Learning is fun, yes, but it's not the only thing in programming.

Programming also involves thinking, and creating new projects you're "passionate" about, or solving cool challenges. Try to find out what makes you happy in programming and use that.

Or maybe, programming is not for you. Your mind can change a lot in just a few years, just do some thinking.