@wh-uws I meant that I have tried my hands at coding but I succumb to it and give up feeling I cannot grab the concepts and the system admin stuff I have no issues with but although i could take system admin as a focus I feel with being an admin I cannot create something of my own and thats what keeps me going back to learning code. I keep switching languages and I believe that is what is screwing the efforts up.

Thank you for the link. Looks like a good read.