Really procrastinate hard when I hit the wall and just hope for things to click. And then just get sleepy when I do start reading code.
This is a psychological thing called the freeze response that activates as your brain responds to stress.
You may want to find a therapist who can help you work it out. This can develop in school in response to "difficult" academic tasks as in ones we have no prior experience with. For example, a lot of folks will freeze in math class for example so much that they then decide not to do math to avoid triggering the response.
It is quite common in perfectionists and folks with high anxiety. Fortunately, you can reprogram your brain.
BTW you're not alone, happened to me a lot. It really hits hard when you also have imposter syndrome.
My advice is therapy to learn to enjoy the journey and problem solving process.
Many folks below have ideas for that. Most basic, work on programming projects that are low value to learn skills and take it step by step. When you get stuck, break something down into smaller steps or find away around it.
Even if your project or product doesn't ship, take comfort in that you learned something.
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This is a psychological thing called the freeze response that activates as your brain responds to stress.
You may want to find a therapist who can help you work it out. This can develop in school in response to "difficult" academic tasks as in ones we have no prior experience with. For example, a lot of folks will freeze in math class for example so much that they then decide not to do math to avoid triggering the response.
It is quite common in perfectionists and folks with high anxiety. Fortunately, you can reprogram your brain.
BTW you're not alone, happened to me a lot. It really hits hard when you also have imposter syndrome.
My advice is therapy to learn to enjoy the journey and problem solving process.
Many folks below have ideas for that. Most basic, work on programming projects that are low value to learn skills and take it step by step. When you get stuck, break something down into smaller steps or find away around it.
Even if your project or product doesn't ship, take comfort in that you learned something.
"This is a psychological thing called the freeze response that activates as your brain responds to stress."
Interesting, I'd never thought of it like that, fear of failure as a lazy perfectionist is too real
I am curious, why do you include the word "lazy" in your description of fear of failure?
Not wanting to do X or Y can be perceived as lazy (I consider myself lazy).