You are really good at writing about yourself / supporting yourself analytically, IMO. In some ways I'd say it doesn't even seem like you have these "problems," in the sense that you are so accepting of your existential world, in which "things happen to me," as opposed to "I make things happen and they bend to my will."
IMO/TL;DR--I would't ask us with expectations of an us-fix or an us-help, unless it's just a vehicle to help you keep writing about yourself. You wrote to us about the way in which you block outside information via multiple means/effects, so you'd be swimming hard upstream. This is more common than people think.
Regarding things happening, I would look at building your own hyper-perceptive timing models for interventions. Ask yourself what's happening _to you_ today and what that means you can do well today. Stuff is sucking, OK so therefore I can really write a long journal entry about how everything sucks today. (To me this is a productive exercise, not anything defeating by a long stretch)
Regarding feedback, there are different names for this group of concerns you have.
But the fact that you're asking us to give you names for the group of concerns, also_has a group of names. And _that_ gets really interesting.
Reach out if you are interested. Otherwise I'd say--you're processing this really well and maybe asking us is the trojan-horse activity that helps you to keep writing at length about your current life conditions. Not a bad thing to be able to lean on, if that's the case.
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You are really good at writing about yourself / supporting yourself analytically, IMO. In some ways I'd say it doesn't even seem like you have these "problems," in the sense that you are so accepting of your existential world, in which "things happen to me," as opposed to "I make things happen and they bend to my will."
IMO/TL;DR--I would't ask us with expectations of an us-fix or an us-help, unless it's just a vehicle to help you keep writing about yourself. You wrote to us about the way in which you block outside information via multiple means/effects, so you'd be swimming hard upstream. This is more common than people think.
Regarding things happening, I would look at building your own hyper-perceptive timing models for interventions. Ask yourself what's happening _to you_ today and what that means you can do well today. Stuff is sucking, OK so therefore I can really write a long journal entry about how everything sucks today. (To me this is a productive exercise, not anything defeating by a long stretch)
Regarding feedback, there are different names for this group of concerns you have.
But the fact that you're asking us to give you names for the group of concerns, also_has a group of names. And _that_ gets really interesting.
Reach out if you are interested. Otherwise I'd say--you're processing this really well and maybe asking us is the trojan-horse activity that helps you to keep writing at length about your current life conditions. Not a bad thing to be able to lean on, if that's the case.