My wife passed away after a long illness and much great suffering. The first month after she was gone, after the first few days passed, I was actually happy. Why? Because her suffering was over. My worry was over. I'd never have to see her suffer again or wail in pain again. I was free of the ordeal that stripped us of so much.

Then, one day, I lost it completely. My daughter (29) even thought she'd already grieved and that she was over it. I thought we were doing something wrong.

Nope.

We all grieve differently and your time will come when it will hit you so hard you won't know what to do . That will pass. Your family needs to understand that. Everyone goes through it differently. You'll get through it and so will they. But not all in the same fashion, and you'll all come out with a different set of scars.

Also, a friend gave me this and it helped me a lot. I hope it'll help you too. https://www.jw.org/en/library/magazines/awake-no3-2018-nov-d...