"I now spend my waking hours thinking about what am I shipping today and my sleep about dreaming stuff I want to ship as soon as I wake up, if I don’t ship, I might as well be dead"

That is just so sad. I agreed until that one, living for shipping makes you live for others. What about doing things for just the casue of doing it? I don't consider my random hacks shipping, it's just a journey on the sea (to use the same methaphors).