Chances are this is not about “purpose” and has nothing to do with the job itself, this is only about you.
Probably your motivation is/was not to fulfill your needs, but to get external approval (of parents, friends, important people etc), to reach some ideal picture you created for yourself etc.
Even now you’re asking for different pictures of other people in similar circumstances - to get external validation of possible solutions.
This is not the way to find internal drive.
Work this out with a good therapist. It’s helping me so far.
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Chances are this is not about “purpose” and has nothing to do with the job itself, this is only about you.
Probably your motivation is/was not to fulfill your needs, but to get external approval (of parents, friends, important people etc), to reach some ideal picture you created for yourself etc.
Even now you’re asking for different pictures of other people in similar circumstances - to get external validation of possible solutions.
This is not the way to find internal drive.
Work this out with a good therapist. It’s helping me so far.