Like another commentator, I also get several compile errors trying to digest your question.
For example "alienate my friends" gives a compile error: if they are really your friends, being a reclusive from time to time wouldn't alienate them.
I have some friends from the arts scene, and my impression is that they are under a lot of pressure to be special and artsy. What made you think that they would be closer to life than hackers? At least hackers create something real, whereas most art is entirely virtual (in the eye of the beholder).
If you are doing something truly cutting edge, it will probably always be a lonely affair. Just try to find the right balance? You might also enjoy this letter from feynman to wolfram: http://elzr.com/posts/wolfram-feynman
Personally, I guess I am already spoiled by my involvement with computers. To me, people are "just" algorithms that run for a short amount of time, similar to threads in a computer system. In the long term, individual experiences don't matter much. In that sense, mathematics seem way more important to me than daily human struggles. A new mathematical formula could live for thousands of years. I am not sure about computer programs, but perhaps the same goes for some of them. Certainly they can outlive their creators.
I am not saying that daily human life is pointless (who is to judge)? I care about my people's happiness, too (including my own). I compromise to be reasonably popular (ie I invest time in buying nice clothes). But when I really think about it, mathematics seems so much more important and interesting.
Also, there might be environments that are more suited to you (or me). I imagined some universities to be like that, but it is hard or impossible to get into there (for example complex systems research in Santa Fe, or ycombinator). Trying to find the peer group where you really belong might be the ticket nevertheless. I am not sure how to do it, but just because neither the artsy people nor the hardcore hackers are for you, doesn't mean that there is no other group that would be suitable.
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Like another commentator, I also get several compile errors trying to digest your question.
For example "alienate my friends" gives a compile error: if they are really your friends, being a reclusive from time to time wouldn't alienate them.
I have some friends from the arts scene, and my impression is that they are under a lot of pressure to be special and artsy. What made you think that they would be closer to life than hackers? At least hackers create something real, whereas most art is entirely virtual (in the eye of the beholder).
If you are doing something truly cutting edge, it will probably always be a lonely affair. Just try to find the right balance? You might also enjoy this letter from feynman to wolfram: http://elzr.com/posts/wolfram-feynman
Personally, I guess I am already spoiled by my involvement with computers. To me, people are "just" algorithms that run for a short amount of time, similar to threads in a computer system. In the long term, individual experiences don't matter much. In that sense, mathematics seem way more important to me than daily human struggles. A new mathematical formula could live for thousands of years. I am not sure about computer programs, but perhaps the same goes for some of them. Certainly they can outlive their creators.
I am not saying that daily human life is pointless (who is to judge)? I care about my people's happiness, too (including my own). I compromise to be reasonably popular (ie I invest time in buying nice clothes). But when I really think about it, mathematics seems so much more important and interesting.
Also, there might be environments that are more suited to you (or me). I imagined some universities to be like that, but it is hard or impossible to get into there (for example complex systems research in Santa Fe, or ycombinator). Trying to find the peer group where you really belong might be the ticket nevertheless. I am not sure how to do it, but just because neither the artsy people nor the hardcore hackers are for you, doesn't mean that there is no other group that would be suitable.
Just wanted to say that I really liked the link that you have posted in your reply, about the correspondences between Feynman and Wolfram.