I would stand there giving myself little pep-talks out loud, convincing myself to follow through. “Do this. It won’t kill you. It’ll be over soon.” And when I got out of that shower clean and covered in goosebumps I felt stronger and more substantial than when I’d gone in. My resolve had been tested and affirmed.

I wonder what things I do to test my resolve that I'm not currently aware of. It took him a year to figure it out for himself.